The Lord liveth and blessed be my rock and let the God of my salvation be exalted. Psalm 18:46
Monday, April 11, 2011
I don't usually go to the King James Version of the bible unless it's a verse that I memorized before adulthood when I switched over to the NIV for my bible study and memorization... HOWEVER... the verse above is one that was part of a praise chorus that we used to sing at Tara Baptist back "in the day"...
I wasn't going to blog this morning because I am really, literally, terribly suffering. Last night I described the three types of pain I'm dealing with... I usually deal with one or two at a time... this morning (and throughout the night last night) I'm dealing with all three. I am wracked with pain. I am literally and honestly miserable. And it's Monday and I have to be at work early and it's the long day of the week and I need the hours and... whine and whine and whine... ad nauseum.
So I thought... I'm just gonna forget the blog entry this morning... who wants to hear me whine? I got in the shower early and just started pouring my heart out to God as the water poured over me. I made a bold statement in last night's blog about being grateful for the pain and how it has helped me draw closer to God... yeah... that'll teach me to brag... and as I was whining before Lord this morning (aka praying) He reminded me of my bold statement. I won't say that I was convicted because I know that God is a God of compassion and He doesn't taunt or tease us but gently reminds us so that... at least for me... in times of trouble we can remember who we are when we're not in trouble. So... I finished my shower really hungry for some guidance and strength...
As usual... when I was drying my hair I pulled out my handy dandy bathroom Bible. What? You don't keep a bible in your bathroom? You should. I use the "Couples Bible"... figuring... that if it gets messed up, I'm not going to miss it *laugh*... So anyways... I just simply asked God to give me a word of encouragement to keep me going today because I just don't have it within me. I was thinking about Psalm 46:1 (God is our refuge and strength an ever present help in trouble) and then the number 18 popped into my head... so I started in Psalm 18... trying to find something that I could really hold onto today... and... because God is a living God, a real God, an omnipotent God who hears my thoughts and knows my pain... those two numbers that were in my head: 18:46, turned out to be a verse I ALREADY KNOW!!!
If you're not a believer, you're rolling your eyes. I saw you. If you are a believer, you're shouting. He is real. He is more real to me today than He has been in a long time because I know He hears my prayers and I know HE answers my prayers and today, that's what I needed.
So that's what I have to say today. He is risen. He is real. He is compassionate. He provides strength and encouragement if we... only listen.
Posted by Heather at 6:49 AM