Presidents Day

I was late to work today. The forecast was calling for 3-5 inches of snow… then 2-4 inches… then 1-3 inches and turning colder and freezing up. The timing was such that the worst was to come in the morning hours… so I wanted to make sure that I knew I could safely get to work and home so I waited to leave for work until I had the all clear. All clear is an understatement – we barely had rain, much less a snowflake. So I missed an hour of work…

I had trouble sleeping last night. I guess it was all the anxiety over the weather. I don’t know… I saw 2am before I fell asleep… and was awake from about 5am on. That is NOT enough sleep for me. Consequently… I’m a little nauseated today. Being super tired makes me nauseous. And makes it difficult to focus. I did better this morning, still on the whole weather watch adrenaline rush. Now that it’s warm and sunny and I’ve been staring at a computer screen for six hours… I’m struggling. I’m trying to make calls and do quotes and stuff but I’m missing a little of my usual perkiness.

I do know that we’ll be instituting EBT* at our house tonight. Dinner is the VERY absolute complete last of the groceries… it’s frozen totinos pizza. Payday is tomorrow and God has been faithful. You simply would not believe how God has blessed us since the last payday. I worry and fret and stress and moan and groan and budget and stretch a dollar out of fifty cents… but then I sit back in absolute awe and amazement of how perfectly God works things out for us. Remember when I was really sick last summer and missed a lot of work and some of you very kind people sent me quarters? I used those quarters today for a fresco taco at Taco Bell! Yesterday morning I found $3 tucked in the pocket of a pair of jeans and we used that to buy our stuff to eat yesterday.

I don’t want to poor mouth too much… I’m a little embarrassed at just HOW broke we are but I also feel like I am blessed beyond measure in the way that He meets every.single.need.every.single.time. In a way, I think I owe it to God to be transparent about how He keeps us going beyond the end of the groceries or the bottom of a gas tank… how the lights and the water stay on and the car stays in my driveway and how I have the strength to get up and go to work every day and not just survive but THRIVE. I know that we are not alone in our struggles… and I know that even for those whose monetary resources may not be stretched as thin… may be facing other challenges to resources of time and energy or health or sanity or strength or … fill in the blanks. I no longer have a rock bottom… there’s always a cushion in the form of a God who loves me and provides everything I need.

Gotta regain my focus here and sell some stuff. I think I went over that ten minutes I saved from lunch… Y’all have a happy, safe, warm, beautiful, gracious, appreciative, wonderful Presidents Day!

*early bedtime