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My People - Cosette, Austin, Oliver, Cody, me & Ryan. Just think, had I not lived, these people wouldn't be on the planet. They are my whole heart!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

random sunday stuff and a question from The Shack

Hard to believe this is my fourth day of rest in a row and I'm still barely able to move. I'm trying not to get discouraged but... every time I move, muscle spasms set in and the pain is unholy. I'm already praying about Monday because there is no way I can NOT work and I know it's going to be difficult. I'm too young to feel this old.

Other random topics tripping through the dark and dusty corridors of my mind:

watermelon for breakfast is awesome
the plateau is over... unfortunately, I've gained... i know it's partly the side effect of steroids and partly the fact that I've over-indulged in the past week
seriously, hardcore, back on track
if I could just get over my addiction to redhots
the weather has been perfect here... warm and sunny
i went into austin's room to turn off the tv last night and realized this kid has serious hoarding issues. i honestly think i need to get him psychological help for it. it's that bad.
even in the kitchen... he canNOT throw out an empty container. don't know what he's saving for.
watching lots of basketball over this extended weekend
battling a headache
not sleeping well, muscle spasms wake me up
will try to nap today in the recliner... seems to be the only comfy place
made an abbrieviated grocery run yesterday with austin's help
excessive news coverage of Japan has been replaced with excessive coverage of Libya
what a sad, scary, violent world we're living in right now
i have no room to complain about my light and momentary troubles with all the true misery in the world today
and I can't help but think that some of this is prophecy coming to pass
i tried watching some preaching and teaching on tv... but they all end up being an infomercial for whatever book that particular preacher or teacher is hawking
money changers in the temple
been trying to figure out what has my blood pressure up... if it's the stress of the chronic pain or if it's a medication that i'm on
i plan to have it checked again next week at my regular doctor, they'll do it for free
i worked so hard to control my blood pressure with diet. ugh.

Interesting question from The Shack:
Where do you spend most of your time in your mind, in your imagination: in the past, in the present or in the future?
I would say I spend a fair amount of time in the present, blogging, recapping, writing cards and letters about what's happening in my life right now...

I spend a lot of time reminiscing about the past, I think anyone with children who have left the nest can't help but remember those precious (and some not so precious) memories you made with your kids. Being on facebook also encourages me to flash back to remember the people I have reconnected with online. And there are truly some people who may have been more of a casual acquaintance than a friend at some time in the past who I have been able to get to know much better through facebook...

I don't think about the future much. I'm a little frightened of the future... not terrified, as I once was... but just handling today's issues is overwhelming for me right now... I think if I COULD focus my imagination more on the future, I'd feel a bit more inspired. I think one definition of "faith" would be to have courage about what the future holds. So... from that aspect, I'd say that my lack of focus on the future indicates a lack of faith. OR... you could say that really all I have is faith... I can't depend on a life partner or on financial security... I can't even depend on the strength of my own physical body because that has started to fail me... the only really secure thing in my future is my faith.

At any rate... hope you have a wonderful Sunday... love and hugs!

2 comments:

LYN said...

All we have is this very moment...it will become the past..will it be worth reflecting on? The future is another chance...every day is yesterdays future...

Ms. Chunky Chick said...

I hope you feel better! I know steroids are the snti diet. it increases water retention and appetite. And I had once read a wonderful analogy that refers to life as driving a car that if we get stuck looking in the rear view we are going to miss what is ahead of us or possibly crash. Just food for thought. I did love the book The Shack have you read the Alchemist yet?