Proverbs 30

As I've mentioned before, I typically read a chapter of Proverbs every day, the day that corresponds with that day of the month. Therefore today my reading is in Proverbs 30.

The cool thing about revisting the same chapters of the Bible each month is that it gives me real life application to this verse:
For the Word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Hebrews 4:12

There are times that I read the Bible and shout, "AMEN!" Preach it, brother. Tell the truth! Hallelujah! I can see the speck in my friend's eye.
And there are other times that I read the Bible and whisper, hoping no one is around to hear, "oh, me". Knowing that THAT verse was meant to show me the plank in my own eye.
Every trip through Proverbs reveals something special that I needed to hear that day. Every trip through Proverbs gives me a better glimpse of who God is. That's my goal, by the way, to know Him and to understand Him.

Think about it... when you meet that "special someone"... you want to know everything you can about them! You'll google their name... check out the website of their employer... you'll spend hours on the phone giggling and blushing about silly things like, "do you like your eggs scrambled or fried?" And if you're like me... on a lifelong quest for that special someone, you have the opportunity to find out a lot of info on a lot of people.

I want my passion for Christ to be a hotter flame than what has ever burned in my heart for any mortal man. I want to WANT to know Him better. Some days I wake up singing and shouting and praising God... some days I wake up sorta... ick. But every day I wake up and read Proverbs to see what new things I can learn about His character and His expectations of me.

The passage that spoke to me today was this:

21 "Under three things the earth trembles, under four it cannot bear up:
22 a servant who becomes king, a fool who is full of food,
23 an unloved woman who is married, and a maidservant who displaces her mistress.

The 30th Chapter of Proverbs has several of these little word riddles. I like this passage because in a way, it validates my feelings on my marriage. "an unloved woman who is married" causes the earth to tremble... the earth cannot bear up under this... if you read it all in context, it's describing things that are contrary to the natural order and expectation of things. I know that I was not wrong, needy, insecure, desperate... any of those things. It is normal for a married woman to expect to be loved. How many women of my generation and the generation before me have suffered depression for the simple reason that their husbands did not love them? The love of a husband for his wife is ordained of God. It's supposed to be. It's a valid expectation. And when it doesn't happen as it should... the earth trembles.

God is good. It has been 19 weeks now. For all that time God has met every single need we've had... from a place to live, a bed to sleep in, a job, a car that runs, food, internet *smile* (I know that's not a necessity but it does make my life more enjoyable!). I'm happy and safe and I don't have to feel the pain of rejection every day as I did when I lived with him.

Must dash and glam! Have a beautiful Friday! *hugs*