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My People - Cosette, Austin, Oliver, Cody, me & Ryan. Just think, had I not lived, these people wouldn't be on the planet. They are my whole heart!

Friday, November 21, 2008

from the "you can't make this stuff up" files

Last night I battled anxiety - and won, thank you very much! But it's the big bad monster just outside my door and I have to work hard to guard my heart and mind against fear - lies that are told to me and about me - frustration - desperation - sadness - anger - I have to battle all these demons and I'll be honest with you, it's exhausting. It's also exhilarating when I have minor victories. Every day is a victory.

This morning while I was straightening up my room I found a xanax on the floor. Don't ask me how it got there. I haven't had xanax in my possession since the night before I left Jacksonville. I gave the whole bottle to my brother with the agreement that if I needed them, I would ask him for it and we would decide together if I needed them. So far I haven't asked for one.

I did take some flexeril for my back last night and it didn't help at all, which tells me that this is not a muscle pull. I'm heading out the door for the doctor now.

It's Friday! In approximately ten hours I'll be heading back home to start my weekend!

7 comments:

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

It is cold and windy with snow pouring down here this morning. I like your thought at the end of the post...about heading home for the weekend. I will be very glad when that time of day comes for sure. 'On Ya'-ma

Myra said...

Kudos to you for celebrating the victories your recognize, and those you don't! Have a wonderful day!

Estela said...

It's almost the weekend! Kudos on your continued victories. I know it's hard, but the face you put on here tells me you are up to the task. Go Heather! :)

Emmi said...

Glad to hear you were able to beat the moster back. Congrats on standing strong.

Lainey Laine said...

Awwwww hun enjoy your weekend.xxxx
Laine xxx
http://lainey-lainesworld.blogspot.com/

Tina said...

I am playing catch up here. sounds like you have had quiet a week. glad you got rid of that migraine and i hope you have a great week.
tina

Beth said...

I hope you were able to find out what's going on with your back. It seems like there are a lot of people on here who are having back problems lately.

Hugs, Beth