More Thankful Thursday

So much I wanna blog about today... continuing my thankful thursday theme...

An hour ago I couldn't have come up with one positive thing to say. I had a real tantrum on my way home from work... I just threw a fit... all the frustration and disappointment of the last few months just built up in me... all the "pushing through" and "walking in faith" and being positive... just flew out the window and I just yelled and hollered and cried and ... well, I got mad. I told God how unfair it all is... and how I deserve to be loved... and how it wasn't right...

He is big enough to take it.

And ultimately... God and I agreed together that it was ok for me to get it out of my system every now and then, as long as I don't make a habit of it. I mean... yeah, it's not fair... but neither is starvation or poverty or war or disease... I don't have it so bad. God reminded me that in the end, people get what they deserve. He reminded me that I am in a place of peace. And to put the exclamation point on what He was telling me, I drove through the town square in Cleveland just as night was falling and each window in the old courthouse was lit up with a little Christmas candle (yes, already!)... and it was so idyllic... and I remembered my cozy little nest of a bed and the crockpot full of beef stew waiting for me... and I remembered that I get paid tomorrow and that I am getting a raise and ... well, it's just all very good.

I have a friend who is hurting right now and my heart is so soft toward them. They are facing what I've faced, only worse... and they are dealing with so much more frustration. They are unable to escape from Egypt like I did... they have to stay and fight it out... and I just want to wish them peace... and courage... and faith... and hope. Always hope.

Austin is excited today because he has finished reading Genesis. Remember when he was given a bible at church for the bible drill group? He has been steadily reading. He reads his bible in church rather than listen to the sermon... I'm not saying it's IDEAL but it's better than him fidgeting and at least he's getting something out of it. Since he's being punished by not being allowed to watch tv or play Wii... he's reading the bible... and today he finished reading Genesis. Now he's reading Exodus. He said, "Hey mom, remember that movie you bought me a long time ago with the camel on it?" No... I didn't remember. "Well, the book of Exodus is the same as that movie". Oh. Prince of Egypt. Or something like that. One of those Disney movies. "yes, they made the movie from the book, not the other way around".

When I first moved here I subscribed to Good Housekeeping Magazine. I like getting magazines and now that I'm on a tight budget (i.e., paying my own bills) I don't have money to spend on my usual magazines every time I go to the store. It was cheaper to buy a subscription and that happened to be the magazine I had at the time (because Jon and Kate were on the cover). Today my December issue came and Paula Dean is on the cover! I LOVE HER! It's awesome how much excitement I get from getting a magazine in the mail. Michael's Travel Golf and Leisure magazine came too. I was less excited about that. I'm treating myself to another subscription soon... I just have to decide what...

I watch Friends every day. I've seen every episode a couple dozen times - to the point that I can quote it - and I still laugh at every joke. I'm easy like that.

It was a good day at work. I had a couple of appointments and although I didn't sell any "big bang for my buck" products, I sold a few other products that matter to the agency and that my clients needed. I didn't feel great this morning and I was a bit draggy when I first got to work. I hung in there. My Georgia insurance license came in the mail! My transition is almost complete... got my Georgia drivers license, got my tag, got my Georgia insurance license... yep, I'm a peach again!

One tiny little whine... I've done something weird to my right knee. Maybe it's just sympathy pain for Jen (my blog friend in CA who is having some knee issues) because I haven't really DONE anything to hurt it... other than the fact that I sit "criss cross applesauce" all the time. Maybe I'm too old to do that any more. It doesn't hurt ALL the time, just on the first step or two and just when I bend a certain way.

Angie sent me Sarabeth's menu for school lunch tomorrow. I'm going to try to eat lunch with her again. It makes her so happy... and it's easy...

So that's the rest of my Thursday... and there won't be much more of it.. I'm in the nest and ready to rest. *group hug*